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On and Off

So lately I haven't been feeling right, not sick like, but more so depressed. It just seems like everything that is going on around me is moving so fast and I'm being left behind. Sometimes when I'm sitting in class, not really doing anything I'll feel this sad feeling come over me. I'm not really sure why, but during that time I tend to just think about the negatives in my life, and I start to put myself down. It doesn't seem like anything serious because 5 or 10 minutes later I'll start to feel okay again, but it soon returns. I don't fully understand what's going on or why, but this has been happening a lot lately, and it used to never happen. It's really starting to bother me. I think about how no one is taking me seriously when it comes to my plans for the future and my life goal, it seems like they are all laughing in my face, and that's one thing I do not appreciate. This has led to me getting less and less sleep, which leads to me not focusing in school, which is definitely not a good thing. I've come to wonder if maybe this is just a stage I'm going through, but if so, then it doesn't seem like a normal one. I'm trying to focus on my guitar and drum lessons, and I'm getting excited for that, but at the same time I can't fully put my all into it and it's driving me insane. I've tried talking to some people about it but they just laugh or don't understand. I don't know what I'm going through, that keeps going on and off but I hope it ends soon. I really need it to.

Lessons.

So I ended up getting guitar lessons. Long story, let me try and make it short.

So I went in and told him I was interested in taking drum lessons. He asked me if I played any other instruments, and I told him that I have a guitar but I don't use it very often. So he handed my his guitar and told me to play a few strings, and I did. Then he put my on the drums and let me mess around with that some. Finally when we were done he said I was very strong on both instruments, he seemed to be impressed, (which is good).

We started talking some more about my plans for the future and how to get started. He told me that it would be more practical to just go ahead and take guitar lessons since I already have the guitar, and in a couple of months I could take up drum lessons, (which I am doing). Another reason why I should start off with guitar is because I would have to rent my drum set, and I really have no place to put it as of yet. I'll eventually find room. (:

All I can say is that I'm extremely excited and ready for any challenges that comes my way.

XoKaitlyn.

Today.

I finally get to start my drum lessons today. Or at least I get to go in and talk to someone about them. I'm so excited, I can't even describe it. No one would understand how stoked I am about this. I'm going to try my hardest.

As one of my favorite drummers Kai said, "To me, drummers need to stay calm no matter what. They need to stay in control." And I am going to try my hardest to live up to that, I want to be the greatest drummer I can be.

If I work hard on this and get enough support then I feel like I can do it.

Besides all of that, I believe I've been a little obsessed over a few bands, and I need to calm down. Ha. Half of the bands I'm in love with I will most likely never get to meet, considering they live very far away, and I'm not talking about across the country, I'm talking about all the way around the world, yes that's right Tokyo, Japan. Well that and Kanagawa, Japan. I want to go to both of those places so bad, but silly me, I'm terrified of planes. I'm such a wimp. Does anyone know how to get over your fear? I don't really think that's possible haha, I'll just need to take something to calm me down if I ever get on a plane, and once I'm on I'll need to take a sleeping pill or else I'll probably be crying the whole time.

I'm extremely tired, we didn't have school today due to the weather, so I've been home all day watching "Dogfights" on the History channel and CSI Miami on A&E, I love marathons. Ha.

XoKaitlyn.

Does anyone else find this as funny as I do?

I don't know about you guys, but I was left laughing on my floor crying my eyes out for 30 minutes, over one simple commercial. And here it is...

Drum Lessons.

Starting tomorrow I'll be taking drum lessons. I'll try to keep you updated as much as possible on how I'm doing. I have wanted to take guitar lessons as well, considering I now have quite a lovely guitar, but it didn't seem to work out. So I will be taking lessons on the side from my friends who can play guitar.

The only problem is that when I rent my drum set, I will have absolutely no place to put it, there is no room in my bedroom, and no room downstairs. All of the rooms in my house are occupied, considering I have a small house. Hopefully the studio I'm taking lessons in will allow me to keep the set there.

I've been wanting learn guitar for quite some time now, but I never got around to actually learning. I mean when I'm upstairs in my room and I have free time I'll grab my guitar and learn some tabs and play a little, even though I have no idea what I'm doing. Ha.

When I start to play drums I going to put my all into it. My brother has been playing the drums since he was in middle school. I'm going to be completely honest. I haven't really learned anything from him, considering I have never really been around him while he's playing. I've heard him play here and there but not actually play a song with his band. I'm hoping that once I get better at the drums and practice my brother and I could get together and go over a few things with each other, it would be amazing if I got his support as well. Not saying I don't already have it ;).

I'm super excited about getting my band together as well. Even though some things aren't working out, my best friend Britt and I have been wanting to get a band together for quite some time. Britt plays bass and since I'm finally learning the drums we can finally get started on it. So for now we have a bassist and a drummer (us two). But some things aren't working out for our vocalist and our guitarist. I always new starting a band was difficult, just not drastically difficult. If only things weren't this hard.

So obviously we need a guitarist (2 if possible) and a vocalist. I'm not saying that we have lost our guitarist and vocalist but between all of us there is just way too much tension. I'm not going to put up with it, this is my dream and I'm not going to let drama get in the way. Britt and I want this more than anything, 3 years we've been working for this, and now that it's finally possible, something always has to stand in the way. I know I can do this and I'm going to. I just need support, and a lot of it. :D

We'll make it, I know we will.

XoKaitlyn.

What do you do when?

What do you do when you asked/promised someone something, then forgot and asked/promised someone else the same thing? What do you do then?

XoKaitlyn.

Visual Kei // Jrock

Visual Kei and Jrock is my style, and yes many people think it's weird/different. What they don't understand is that it's supposed to be. When I walk into school wearing 10,000 necklaces, different colored fingernails, 20 rings, rainbow colored clothes, crazy hair, and heavy make-up, I could CARE LESS if people stare at me like I'm insane, because in all honesty I am ;D // Lately I haven't been able to do all of that because my hair has grown out so it's much harder to style it, and for the clothes I don't have clothes that go with Visual Kei that still fit me, I need to go shopping!

Visual Kei is my life. Visual Kei bands put so much effort and energy into their music and performances it's hard not to like them. Whether you are watching a live performance off of youtube, or actually seeing them live you can tell that they put 110% into their songs. Here in the U.S many people would agree that some of our "stars" cannot sing at all, and that they have their voice covered by a computer, whether it's a pop star or a rocker. In Japan it's completely different. I'm not entirely sure if Jpop singers use computers to 'fix' their voice or not, but in Japan, record companies choose Visual Kei bands that can actually play, and where the vocalist can actually sing. The way they put 110% into their live's just makes them even more amazing and beautiful. Their songs all hold meaning. Please check them out.

More on Visual Kei

-Style/Look-

--the GazettE--






the GazettE is a mainstream band that has made is far in the Visual Kei movement, they are one of my top favorites. Their style and their music are simply amazing. They care so much about their fans. They are down to earth and don't let anything they do go to their heads. Their style is completely amazing. They have many different styles, most of them all something crazy. Something I wanna be able to pull off.

Many people do not like the style because it's too bold, or too loud. You need to understand that it's supposed to be that way. It really grabs their fans attention and thats what you want to do when you're in a band correct? Many people think I'm weird and different or completely insane JUST because I like Visual Kei bands. I honestly don't care, it's who I am and I'm not changing. Visual Kei is a great style and I don't think anything could be any better.

--alice nine.--






alice nine. is a popular Visual Kei rock band that focuses on their work. They love their fans and give 110% during Lives. I first got into them when they caught my attention with the song "RAINBOWS". If you listen to this band I guarentee you'll instantly be hooked.

There are many more bands that I love such as, girugamesh, SuG, SiD, An Cafe, Matenrou Opera, X Japan, and Miyavi. They've changed my life. Just because Visual Kei bands have a loud and exicting style does not mean you should judge them based on their look. They are people as well and they are just like us.

XoKaitlyn

Work.

Working sucks but you need to make money, correct?

XoKaitlyn